When I finally looked up, Annabelle was gone.
Tasha told me later that she’d walked out the side door before the clapping even finished. She left so fast that she didn’t notice she’d dropped one of her leather gloves by the bleachers. One of the dads picked it up and put it on the lost and found table, next to a single mitten and a Spiderman lunchbox.
Nigel was still there.
He stood near the back of the gym with coffee all over his shoes, and people were moving away from him without seeming to mean to. Like there was a circle around him that nobody wanted to step into.
Principal Okafor did a remarkable thing. She cleared her throat into the microphone, waited for the room to settle, and said, “Thank you, Dustin. That took a great deal of courage.” Then she paused for exactly the right amount of time and said, “And now. Best costume.”
People actually laughed. Real laughter, the relieved kind. And the fair went on.
Dustin didn’t win best costume. A first grader dressed as a working gumball machine won, which was fair. But when they announced the bake sale prize, the pumpkin cupcakes from the fourth grade booth took second place, and Dustin’s whole class screamed like we’d won the Super Bowl.
I didn’t see Nigel leave. I just looked up at some point and he wasn’t there anymore.
We walked out to the parking lot at four thirty. The sun was low and orange, almost the same color as our costumes. Dustin had taken his off and was carrying it under his arm, the hula hoop sticking out at a weird angle.
Nigel was standing next to my car.
I stopped walking. Dustin stopped too, and slid half a step behind me.
Nigel looked terrible. His face was gray. He’d tried to wipe the coffee off his shoes and only made it worse.
“Can I talk to him?” he asked me.
I looked down at Dustin. “That’s up to him.”
Dustin didn’t say anything for a long moment. Then he nodded once.
Nigel crouched down in the parking lot, right there on the asphalt, so his face was level with Dustin’s. I hadn’t seen him do that since Dustin was little.
“How long?” Nigel asked. “How long were you recording?”
“Since August,” Dustin said. “After the beach picture.”
“Why didn’t you just tell me?”
Dustin looked at him like it was the dumbest question he’d ever heard.
“I did,” he said. “I told you she was being mean about Mom. In the car. You said she was just kidding and I needed to toughen up.”
Nigel’s face changed. I could see him remembering it.
“And then Mom called you,” Dustin went on. “And you said you’d talk to her. And she just kept doing it. So I figured you didn’t believe me. So I got proof.”
Nigel opened his mouth. Nothing came out. He closed it again.
“The boarding school thing,” he said finally. “Buddy, that was never… I never would have…”
“You said maybe.”
“I know what I said.”
“You said, ‘Maybe. We’ll see.’”
Nigel looked down at the ground. He was quiet for a long time. When he looked up again, his eyes were wet. I had been married to this man for eleven years, and I had seen him cry exactly twice. Once when Dustin was born. Once when his father died.
“I’m sorry,” Nigel said. “I’m so sorry. You shouldn’t have had to do that. That was my job, and I didn’t do it.”
Dustin just looked at him.
“I don’t want to go to your house when she’s there,” he said.
“Okay.”
“I mean it.”
“I know. Okay.” Nigel wiped his face with the back of his hand. Then he looked up at me. “Jenna.”
I waited.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “For the costume thing. For all of it. For laughing. I don’t even know why I laughed.”
I thought about all the things I could say. I’d had years of practice not saying them. I thought about the elevator. Why don’t you ever say anything back?
“You laughed,” I said, “because it was easier than standing up for me. It always was.”
He flinched. But he nodded.
“I’m not going to bad mouth you to him,” I said. “I never have. I’m not going to start now. But I’m done pretending everything’s fine to protect your feelings. If she’s in his life, she treats his mother with respect. If she can’t, she’s not in his life. That’s it. That’s the deal.”
“She’s not going to be in his life,” Nigel said quietly.
“That’s for you to figure out.”
“No,” he said. “I mean, I already know. I knew in the gym. I just… I needed a minute.”
He stood up. His knees cracked. He looked suddenly older than forty one.
“Can I still see him next weekend?”
I looked at Dustin. Dustin looked at the ground. Then he looked at his dad.
“Just you?” Dustin asked.
“Just me. Pizza place. Video games. No Biscuit.”
The tiniest smile. “Biscuit’s not that bad. He just bites.”
Nigel laughed, a broken little laugh, and this time it didn’t hurt to hear it.
On the drive home, Dustin sat in the back seat with the pumpkin costume on his lap. He was quiet, but it wasn’t the soft-door quiet anymore. It was the quiet of someone who’d set down something heavy and was still getting used to how light his arms felt.
At a red light, I looked at him in the rearview mirror.
“I have to ask you something,” I said. “And I need you to tell me the truth.”
“Okay.”
“Did Mr. Hale know what was on the flash drive?”
He hesitated. “He knew about the mom part. The pictures. I told him it was a surprise for you, and he helped me with the transitions.” He paused. “I added the other part at home. After.”
“So he didn’t know.”
“He kind of saw the title right before he plugged it in. He asked me if I was sure. I said I was sure.”
The light turned green. I drove.
“Are you mad?” he asked again.
I thought about it for a long time. Long enough that he started fidgeting.
“I’m not mad,” I finally said. “But I’m going to tell you two things, and I need you to hear both of them. Okay?”
“Okay.”
“The first thing is that recording people secretly is usually not okay. Annabelle wasn’t totally wrong about that part. There are places where it’s actually against the law, and even when it’s not, it can hurt people in ways you don’t mean. So you don’t do that again. Not without talking to me first. Deal?”
“Deal,” he said, a little sulky.
“The second thing,” I said, and I had to stop and swallow. “The second thing is that you should never have had to. That’s not on you. That’s on the grown ups. That’s on your dad. And that’s on me too.”
“You?” He sounded genuinely confused. “You didn’t do anything.”
“I know,” I said. “That’s the problem.”
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