One year after I went on that cruise by myself, I went on it again.
This time I wasn’t alone.
Greg walks with a cane now. His hands shake more than they used to. Sometimes he has to stop in the middle of a sentence and wait for the word to come back. But on our first night at sea, he put on his navy suit and his good tie, and I helped him with the buttons on his shirt, and we walked into the dining room together arm in arm.
Arnel was still working there. When he saw me, his whole face lit up.
“Mrs. Whitman! You came back!”
“I did,” I said. “And I brought my husband.”
He took us to a table by the big window. The same table. I’d asked for it specially when I booked.
And sitting there waiting for us, in a straw hat with a fake sunflower on it, was June Kessler.
Walt was next to her, with his white mustache and a fruity drink with a little umbrella in it.
I screamed. I couldn’t help it. Half the dining room turned around.
“Surprise,” Lynn said from behind me. She had arranged the whole thing. Of course she had.
June stood up, walked right past me, and grabbed Greg’s face in both of her hands.
“So you’re the idiot,” she said.
Greg blinked at her. “Yes, ma’am. I’m the idiot.”
“Well.” She looked him up and down. Then she pulled him into a hug. “You’re a handsome idiot. I’ll give you that.”
We ate dinner together. Walt told three of his seven fishing stories. Greg told the one about getting stuck in the chimney. June laughed so hard that she snorted, and then she blamed it on Walt.
Halfway through dessert, the piano player started playing an old Frank Sinatra song. One of the slow ones.
Greg put down his fork.
“Claire,” he said. “Would you dance with me?”
I looked at the cane leaning against his chair.
“Are you sure?”
“No,” he said. “I might fall down. I might step on your feet. I might forget which foot goes where. But I’d like to try anyway.”
So we danced.
It wasn’t graceful. His feet didn’t always go where he wanted them to. His hand shook against my back. Twice, I had to hold him up. But we stayed out there on that little dance floor in the middle of the ocean through the whole song, swaying back and forth, holding on to each other.
When the song ended, he didn’t let go.
“I have something for you,” he said.
He reached into his jacket pocket. It took him a few tries. His fingers kept missing.
I knew that gesture. I had seen it once before at that very same table, one year ago, on the worst and best night of my life. A man reaching into his pocket. The moment everything changed.
He pulled out a folded piece of paper.
He opened it with shaking hands. It was covered in handwriting. His handwriting. Crooked and wobbly and slanting in every direction, with words crossed out and rewritten. It must have taken him days to write it.
“I wanted to say this while I still can,” he said. “While I can still remember all the words.”
He cleared his throat.
“Claire. I promised you twenty-three years ago, in a church with a leaky roof, that I’d love you in sickness and in health. Then I got sick, and I forgot that the promise was yours too. I tried to take it away from you. I’m sorry. I’ll be sorry for the rest of my life. However long that is.”
My eyes were filling up. Behind us, June was already crying into her napkin.
“I can’t promise you I’ll always remember your name,” Greg read. “I can’t promise you I’ll always be kind. I can’t promise you I’ll always be able to hold your hand. But I can promise you this. Every day that I’m still me, I’m going to spend it loving you. And on the days that I’m not me anymore, I hope you’ll remember tonight. I hope you’ll remember that I knew exactly who you were. And I chose you. I would choose you every single time.”
He folded the paper back up and put it in my hand.
“Will you grow old with me?” he asked. “Whatever that looks like?”
A year earlier, in our kitchen, he had told me we weren’t meant to grow old together.
He was wrong. We just didn’t know yet what growing old together was going to mean.
It doesn’t mean rocking chairs on a porch and walking hand in hand on the beach at eighty. Maybe it never will. It means plastic cups and support groups. It means shaky signatures and dropped car keys. It means a man reaching into his pocket three times before his fingers can find what they’re looking for.
It means staying.
“Yes,” I said. “Yes, you stupid, wonderful man. Every single day.”
And there, on a dance floor in the middle of the ocean, with an old woman from Oregon crying into her napkin and my sister taking pictures on her phone, I kissed my husband.
Love isn’t proof that nothing bad will ever happen to you.
Love is what you do when it does.
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