The river came up in April.
It came up in the night.
I didn’t hear it. That’s the part that still bothers me. Fifty-one years I lived in that house on Water Street in Harlow, Iowa, two blocks from the Cedar River, and I always told myself I’d hear it coming. A roar. A rush. Something.
There was nothing.
I woke up at four in the morning because my feet were cold. I was lying in bed in the dark, and my feet were cold, and I didn’t understand why. I reached down to pull up the quilt and my hand touched water.
Not damp. Water. Moving. Lapping against the side of the mattress.
I sat straight up. I fumbled for the lamp on the nightstand. It didn’t turn on. The power was out.
I swung my legs over the side of the bed, and they went into water up to my knees. Cold. River cold. It smelled like mud and gasoline and something rotten.
I stood up in the dark with the water swirling around my legs and my nightgown sticking to my thighs, and I heard it now. Not a roar. A gurgle. A soft, steady sound, like a bathtub filling. Coming from everywhere at once. Under the doors. Through the floor vents. Up through the drains.
“Oh, Ron,” I said out loud. “Oh, Ron, it’s in the house.”
He’d been gone five years. I still talked to him. Out loud. Every day.
He didn’t answer.
I got my purse off the dresser. I got my phone. Dead. I’d forgotten to charge it. I got the shoebox off the closet shelf with the important papers in it. Birth certificates. The deed. Ron’s death certificate. Our wedding picture.
And the little blue bank book. With the rubber band around it.
I put it all in a plastic grocery bag and tied the handles in a knot.
Then I waded out through the hallway. Past the bathroom. Past the door to the room that had been Megan’s when she was little, with the faded pink wallpaper I never changed. Into the kitchen.
By the time I got there, the water was at my waist.
I stood in that kitchen in the dark, holding a plastic bag over my head, and I looked around. I couldn’t see much. Just shapes. The refrigerator. The table. The window over the sink, gray with the first light.
It was the kitchen where I raised Megan.
Where she ate Cheerios in her high chair and threw them on the floor for the dog. Where she did her homework at the table every night while I made supper. Where Ron taught her to make pancakes on Saturday mornings, and she always burned the first one. Where she cried when she didn’t make cheerleading in ninth grade, and I held her against my chest and rocked her like a baby. Where she told us she was pregnant with Lily, standing right by that window, shaking, scared we’d be angry. Ron picked her up and spun her around.
Fifty-one years in that kitchen.
The water kept rising.
A man in a johnboat came down Water Street at six-thirty in the morning. A volunteer from the fire department. Young, with a beard, wearing an orange life vest. He was shouting into the houses with a bullhorn.
“Anybody here? Anybody need help?”
I was standing on my kitchen counter by then. In my nightgown. Holding my plastic bag. The water had come up past the stovetop.
I banged on the window over the sink with my fist.
He saw me. He brought the boat right up to the window. He broke out the glass with a paddle and reached in and helped me climb through. I cut my arm on the glass going out. I didn’t feel it until later.
“You’re okay, ma’am,” he kept saying. “You’re okay. I’ve got you.”
I sat in the bottom of that johnboat with a scratchy wool blanket around my shoulders and watched my house get smaller behind us.
The water was up to the bottom of the windows. Brown and swirling. A lawn chair floated past. Then somebody’s mailbox. Then a child’s red plastic wagon, upside down.
I was seventy-two years old.
My husband Ron had been gone five years.
And everything I’d ever had was under the river.
The insurance man came eleven days later, when the water finally went down.
He was young. Thirty, maybe. He wore rubber boots and a white paper mask and carried a clipboard. He walked through my house for twenty minutes, poking at the walls with a pen. The drywall was soft as wet bread. Black mold was already climbing up from the floor in long, furry streaks. The carpet squished under his boots. Everything smelled like a sewer.
He came back out to the porch where I was waiting. He made a check mark on his clipboard.
“Total,” he said.
He used the word “total.” He said it like he was reading the weather.
“Total,” I repeated.
“The structure’s compromised. Foundation’s cracked on the north side. With the mold, there’s no way to remediate it cost-effectively. It’ll need to come down.” He tore a sheet off his clipboard and handed it to me. “You’ll get a call from the adjuster in about two weeks with a number.”
“A number.”
“For the payout.” He looked at me over his mask. For a second, something human flickered in his eyes. “I’m sorry, ma’am. I’ve seen eighty houses this week. Yours is one of the worst.”
I didn’t say anything. I just held that piece of paper.
He walked to his truck. He drove away.
I stood on my porch for a long time. Then I went back inside. Just once. Just for a minute.
The kitchen was a ruin. The table was on its side, legs sticking up like a dead animal. The refrigerator had floated and fallen over. The cabinets had come off the walls. Everything was coated in a layer of brown silt, half an inch thick. On the wall by the window, the waterline was a dark stain at exactly four feet high.
Four feet of brown water in the kitchen where I raised Megan.
On the floor, half buried in mud, I found something. A little ceramic bluebird. It had sat on my windowsill for forty years. Megan bought it for me with her own money when she was seven. At the five-and-dime. It cost a dollar and fifty cents.
Its tail was broken off.
I put it in my pocket. Then I walked out of that house for the last time.
For eleven days, I’d been sleeping on a cot at the Red Cross shelter in the Harlow High School gym.
There were two hundred of us. Two hundred cots in long rows on the basketball court, under the big fluorescent lights. Old people, mostly. Some families. A lot of kids. The Red Cross ladies brought us coffee and sandwiches and blankets. A church group came every night with casseroles.
I didn’t mind it, really. Everyone was kind. But at night, lying on that cot in the dark, listening to two hundred people breathing and coughing and crying quietly into their pillows, I felt more alone than I’d felt since Ron died.
Megan picked me up on the twelfth day.
She’d been calling every night. She lived forty minutes away, in Cedar Ridge, the nice suburb on the hill. She had the kids. Her job. She was a nurse on the cardiac floor at the hospital. Twelve-hour shifts. She couldn’t get away.
But on the twelfth day, she walked into that gym in her blue scrubs, straight from work, and she saw me sitting on my cot.
She stopped.
Then she walked across that basketball court so fast she was almost running, and she wrapped her arms around me and held on.
She hugged me hard. Harder than she’d hugged me in years.
For a second, she was nine years old again. The little girl in pink pajamas who used to climb into my bed during thunderstorms.
“Mom,” she said into my hair. “Oh, Mom. I’m so sorry. I should have come sooner.”
“You came now,” I said. “That’s what matters.”
She pulled back and looked at me. At my face. At the bandage on my arm. At the plastic grocery bag in my lap that held everything I had left.
Her eyes filled up.
“You’re coming home with us, Mom,” she said. “Right now. No arguments.”
I didn’t argue.
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