I sent the kids upstairs to the guest room with a plate of Christmas cookies and the old Nintendo that used to be Emily’s.
Then Emily and I sat down at the kitchen table. The same table where she did her homework every night growing up.
She held a cup of coffee in both hands. She didn’t drink it.
“I’m sorry, Mom,” she whispered.
“For what?”
She looked up, surprised.
“Say it clearly, Emily,” I said. “Not to punish yourself. But because you need to hear yourself say what happened.”
She took a shaky breath.
“I’m sorry I didn’t defend you. I’m sorry I let Ryan talk to you that way. In your own house. In front of everybody.”
She swallowed.
“And I’m sorry I expected you to just accept being humiliated. So Christmas would stay peaceful.”
“Thank you,” I said.
And then my daughter started to cry.
“He isn’t always like that, Mom.”
I didn’t say anything.
She laughed. A broken little laugh.
“I know how that sounds.”
“Tell me how it sounds to you,” I said.
She wiped her eyes.
“Like every woman on every TV show who says her husband isn’t always like that.”
“Yes,” I said. “It does.”
She told me things then. Things she’d never told anybody.
How Ryan checked her phone. How he controlled every dollar she earned at the clinic. How he decided which friends she could see. How he told her, over and over, that her mother used money to control them.
“He says you’re trying to buy our kids,” she said. “He says every time you pay for something, it’s so you can hold it over him.”
“Emily. Have I ever once demanded anything from you two? For all that money?”
“No.”
“Have I ever told you how to raise your children?”
“No.”
“Have I ever asked you to choose me over him?”
She shook her head.
“No, Mom. Never.”
“Then Ryan doesn’t hate control,” I said. “He hates proof. Proof that the woman he looks down on is the one person keeping his whole life from falling apart.”
Emily finally looked me in the eye.
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