I live in the cottage now.
The little white Cape Cod with the green shutters in Haddonfield. Lemon Pledge and peppermints and old books.
I didn’t change much. I painted the kitchen a pale yellow. I put Walter’s recliner back by the front window where it belongs. I hung up the photographs from the shoebox Gertrude asked me to sort. Forty years of her life. And twenty years of mine, right there with them.
There’s one picture I put on the mantel. It’s from my thirty-fifth birthday. Gertrude and me in her kitchen, both laughing, holding up a lopsided grocery-store cake that says HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSIE in blue frosting.
Christopher isn’t in it. He was in Chicago that week.
I went back to school last fall. Rutgers in Camden. Nights and weekends. I’m studying to become a geriatric care manager. The people who help families take care of their aging parents. The people who make sure somebody’s watching when nobody else is.
I’m forty-nine years old. I’ll graduate when I’m fifty-one.
Gertrude would’ve said that’s no age at all.
The eighty-six thousand dollars Christopher is paying back to the estate is going into a fund. Harold helped me set it up. It’s called the Gertrude Whitaker Fund. It pays for in-home caregivers for elderly people in Camden County who don’t have family nearby.
Or whose family just doesn’t come.
So far, it’s paid for nine hundred hours of care. For eleven people.
Christopher’s money.
I think Gertrude would like that.
I still carry the little silver key.
It doesn’t open anything anymore. I closed the safe deposit box at Haddonfield National Bank in December. Doris cried when I turned in the key. So she gave it back to me.
“You keep it, honey,” she said. “It’s not the bank’s key anymore. It’s hers.”
So I put it on a thin silver chain. I wear it around my neck. Under my sweater. Right over my heart.
Some mornings, I sit at Gertrude’s kitchen table with a cup of coffee and her African violets blooming purple in the window. And I think about that last night in the ER.
Her hand tightening around mine. Her clear, certain eyes. The words I couldn’t hear but understood anyway.
No more crying. It’s time.
For twenty years, I thought being a good wife meant holding everything together. Making his absence look respectable. Answering for him. Covering for him. Waiting for him.
Gertrude knew better.
She spent her last eight months quietly making sure I’d be free.
And with the last strength she had on this earth, she put that freedom in my hand.
I didn’t see it then. I thought she was giving me a key.
She was giving me the door.
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