The pianist came back and started playing again. Something slow and sad. I wanted to scream at him to stop.
“I told Greg all of that,” Elliot said quietly. “Every bit of it. And when he got his results in July, he called me that night. He was drunk. I’d never heard him drunk before. And he said to me, ‘Elliot, I won’t do that to Claire. I won’t let her become your mother. I won’t let her spend fifteen years wiping my chin and watching me forget her name.’”
I couldn’t breathe.
“I told him he was being crazy,” Elliot said. “I told him he had to tell you. That you had a right to know. That you might want to make your own choice. He hung up on me.”
“He decided,” I whispered. “He just… decided. For me.”
“He thought if he told you the truth, you’d never leave him. And he was right, wasn’t he?”
“Of course I wouldn’t leave him!”
“That’s exactly why he did it this way.” Elliot leaned forward. “He thought if he told you he’d stopped loving you, you’d be hurt. You’d be angry. But you’d move on. You’d heal. You’re only fifty, Claire. He told me that. He said, ‘She’s only fifty. She’s still got her whole life. She can still find somebody who’ll grow old with her.’”
I don’t think we’re meant to grow old together.
That’s what he’d said. Standing in our kitchen with his coat still on.
He hadn’t been lying.
He’d been telling me the truth in the cruelest, most loving way he knew how.
“And Sophie?” I asked. “What about our daughter?”
Elliot’s face went very still.
“That’s the other reason I’m here,” he said.
I felt like the floor of the ship had dropped out from under me.
Fifty-fifty, I thought. If one of your parents has it, you have a fifty-fifty chance.
“Oh, God,” I said. “Oh, God. Sophie.”
“Greg didn’t want to tell her,” Elliot said. “He said she’s twenty years old. She’s got finals. She’s got her whole life. He said he’d tell her someday, when she’s older. When she’s settled. Maybe when she’s thinking about having kids of her own.” He shook his head. “But I grew up watching my father fall apart without knowing why. Nobody told me anything until I was a teenager. I spent years terrified, and I didn’t even know what I was terrified of. I don’t want that for my niece.”
My niece. He said it so naturally. Like he’d been practicing it.
“Why now?” I asked. “Why come find me here? On a cruise ship in the middle of the ocean?”
He almost laughed.
“Greg called me a few weeks ago. He said your sister had booked you a cruise. He sounded so relieved. He said, ‘Good. She needs it. She’ll be okay.’ He told me the name of the ship.” Elliot shrugged. “I live in Tampa. I own a construction company. I booked the last cabin they had left the next morning.”
“Why didn’t you just call me? Or come to the house?”
“Because if I’d shown up at your front door, you’d have called Greg. And Greg would have told you I was a crazy man and to slam the door in my face.” He paused. “And honestly, Claire, I almost didn’t do it at all. I’ve been on this ship for four days. I’ve walked past you three times. I sat two tables away from you at breakfast yesterday. I couldn’t do it. I kept thinking, who am I to blow up this woman’s life? I’m a stranger. I met her husband once in a diner.”
“So what changed?”
He looked at the photograph of his father.
“Tonight I saw you sitting here alone,” he said. “Looking out the window. And I thought about my mother. And I thought, if it had been her, she would have wanted to know. She would have wanted to choose.”
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