I stared at that envelope. My hands were trembling so hard the paper rattled.
Thomas stepped back from the doorway. He reached around the corner of the hallway. And he pulled something into view.
A box.
It was enormous. Almost as tall as me. Wide and flat, like a big white garment box, tied with a wide navy blue satin ribbon. He carried it easily, with one arm. When he set it down in the doorway of my cabin, it barely made a sound.
It was surprisingly light. But absolutely enormous.
I stood there, not understanding what was happening.
“This trip is special,” Thomas said quietly. “Your husband left something for you. He left these with me before he died. And he gave me very clear instructions to give them to you today.” He paused. “On your anniversary. At six-thirty in the evening. Not one minute earlier.”
“Six-thirty?”
“That’s the time you were married. He said the church bells rang at six-thirty.”
I put my hand over my mouth.
He was right. Our wedding ceremony started at six. The bells rang when we walked out of the church as husband and wife. Six-thirty. I’d forgotten that. Martin never did.
“I’ll give you some privacy,” Thomas said gently. “I’ll wait at the end of the hall. When you’re ready, there’s more. But take your time. As much as you need.”
He turned and walked down the corridor.
I pulled the box inside my cabin. I closed the door.
I sat down on the edge of the bed with the envelope in my lap.
I immediately tore it open.
There were four pages inside. Written in pen, on the Aurelia’s cream-colored captain’s stationery. Martin’s handwriting. Messy and slanted and shaky. Shakier than I’d ever seen it.
He must have written it in that hospital bed.
My dearest Evie,
Happy fiftieth anniversary, mermaid.
If you’re reading this, it means two things. First, it means I didn’t make it. I’m sorry, love. I tried. I want you to know I tried as hard as I’ve ever tried anything. Harder than any storm. But this was one ocean I couldn’t get across.
Second, it means you came. You kept your promise. You got on the ship.
I’m so proud of you, I could burst.
Do you know how many times I asked you to come? I counted once. Two hundred and twelve times, in twelve years on the Aurelia. Plus probably another five hundred before that, on all the other ships. And every time you said no, I understood. I knew about Tommy. I knew what the water took from you. I never blamed you for being afraid.
But Evie, I want you to know something. Every single voyage, for fifty years, I looked out at the most beautiful places on Earth, and the only thing I could think was, I wish she could see this. Every sunrise. Every port. Every dolphin. Every star. I’d stand on the bridge at night and look at the water and think, Evie would love this. If only she weren’t afraid.
That’s why I sent all those postcards. So you could see a little piece of it. So you’d know that wherever I was, you were there too. In my head. In my heart. Every mile.
I had to stop reading. I couldn’t see the words anymore. I wiped my eyes with the sleeve of his cardigan and kept going.
I have a confession to make. This cruise was never supposed to be just an anniversary trip.
It was supposed to be my last voyage.
I told the cruise line in December. I was retiring. For good. This was going to be my final sailing on the Aurelia, and I was going to spend it as a passenger, not a captain. With you. And when we got to Athens, I was going to walk down that gangway, hand in hand with you, and never go back to sea again.
The sailor was finally coming ashore for good. For his mermaid.
I was going to tell you on our anniversary. Tonight. At dinner. I had a whole speech planned. Thomas helped me write it. It was very romantic. You would have cried.
Well. You’re probably crying anyway.
I was. I was crying so hard I had to put the letter down on the bed beside me. I sat there with my hands over my face for a long time.
Fifty years. Fifty years of goodbyes on the front lawn. Fifty years of duffel bags and empty driveways and wish you were here.
And he’d been coming home. For good. He’d been coming home to stay.
I picked up the letter again.
When the doctor told me how much time I had, I lay awake for three nights trying to figure out what to do. I knew I wouldn’t make it to June. I could feel it. And I knew that if I wasn’t there, you’d never get on this ship. You’d tear up the tickets. I know you, Evie. You’d tear them up and throw them in the trash and never look at the ocean again.
And I couldn’t let that happen.
Because there’s something I’ve wanted to give you for fifty years. And I’m not going to let a little thing like dying stop me.
So I called Thomas. I’ve trained a lot of officers, Evie, but Thomas is the best of them. He’s like a son to me. He promised me he’d take care of everything. I asked him to watch out for you on this trip. I asked the whole crew, actually. Every single one of them. If anyone’s been extra kind to you, that’s why. Joel, your cabin steward, I trained him to make the towel mermaid myself. It took me three tries to get the tail right.
I laughed out loud. Through my tears, I laughed.
The mermaid towel. Of course.
Tonight, there’s a dance in the Grand Ballroom. A formal one. The orchestra is playing. And I’ve arranged a few things.
But first, I need you to open the box.
I bought what’s inside in April. The week after the diagnosis. I knew then that I probably wouldn’t get to see you wear it. But I wanted to give it to you anyway.
Because I promised you, a long time ago, that someday we’d dance on my ship.
And I’ve never broken a promise to you, Evie. Not once in fifty years.
I’m not about to start now.
Open the box, mermaid.
All my love, forever and a day,
Your sailor,
Martin
P.S. I’m sorry I can’t sing to you tonight. I know you’ll be relieved. But you’ll hear “Moon River” one more time. I promise.
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