We went to the bank the next morning. Megan and I. Just the two of us.
It wasn’t Harlow Savings and Loan anymore. It had been bought out years ago. It was a First Iowa branch now, glass and marble, with a coffee machine in the lobby and a teller window where nobody used passbooks anymore.
The young woman at the desk looked at my little blue bank book like it was something from a museum.
“I haven’t seen one of these in years,” she said. “Is this still active?”
“Every month,” I said.
She typed for a while. Then she looked up at Megan.
“Ms. Dawes?”
“Turner,” Megan said. “I’m married. It’s Turner now.” She paused. Then she looked at me. “But the account can stay in Dawes. I’d like it to stay in Dawes.”
She paid the past-due amount. Fourteen thousand eight hundred and sixty dollars and forty-two cents. Directly to First Midwest Home Loans. By certified check.
Then she paid off the second mortgage. The one Josh forged. Sixty-five thousand dollars.
When she signed her name on the paperwork, her real signature, her hand didn’t shake once.
Afterward, we sat in the car in the bank parking lot. Megan was holding the bank book in both hands.
“Ninety-two thousand left,” she said quietly. “After everything.”
“It’s yours.”
“Mom.” She looked at me. “It’s yours too. It’s your house. Your house on Water Street. Your paychecks from the tailor shop. I can’t keep it.”
“You can,” I said. “And you will. Your father would come back and haunt me if you didn’t.”
She laughed through her tears.
Then she was quiet for a long time.
“Why did you sign it?” she finally asked. “The rent agreement. Why didn’t you just walk out that night? You had a hundred and thirty thousand dollars. You could have walked out and bought a house the next day.”
I looked out the windshield at the bank.
“Because I saw your hands shaking,” I said.
She stared at me.
“On the paper,” I said. “That night at the table. You were holding the agreement, and your hands were shaking. You’d never been afraid of me a day in your life, Megan. Not even when you were sixteen and backed my car into the mailbox. So I knew it wasn’t me you were afraid of.” I took her hand. “And I wasn’t going to leave you alone with whatever it was.”
She held my hand very tight.
“Two years, Mom,” she whispered. “You lived in my basement for two years. You did your laundry on Tuesdays. You didn’t touch the thermostat. You slept in your winter coat. You hemmed pants for nine dollars an hour.”
“I know.”
“Why didn’t you ever say anything?”
“Because you had to see it yourself,” I said. “If I’d told you, you’d have defended him. That’s what love does. It defends.” I squeezed her hand. “You had to sit at that kitchen table at one in the morning with the pink envelope and see it with your own eyes. Then I could help.”
That night, Megan went down to the basement.
I was lying in bed reading when I heard the door at the top of the stairs open. Not slowly this time. Not one careful step at a time. Just open.
Megan came down the stairs. She was holding the rent agreement. The two typed pages. Stapled at the corner. My signature on the bottom, in careful Catholic-school cursive.
She stood in my bedroom doorway.
Then she tore it in half.
Then in half again.
Then again, and again, until it was nothing but confetti, and she let it fall on the carpet at her feet like snow.
“Laundry,” she said, “is any day you want.”
I looked at her.
“Thermostat,” she said, “is yours. Set it to eighty if you want. Set it to ninety.”
I started to laugh.
“Kitchen is open,” she said. “All day. All night. I’d like you to cook dinner again. If you want. Not because you have to. Because I miss your pot roast so much I dream about it.”
“Okay,” I said.
“And Mom.” Her voice cracked. “Grandchildren. Come downstairs anytime. Every night. Every morning. As much as they want.”
From behind her, from the stairs, came a small voice.
“Really?”
Lily was standing on the third step from the bottom in her socks, holding a library book. Little House on the Prairie. Again. For the third time.
Megan turned around. She looked at her daughter.
“Were you listening?”
“Kind of,” Lily said.
“How long have you been coming down here?”
Lily looked at me. I nodded.
“Almost every night,” Lily said. “For two years.”
Megan looked at me. Then at Lily. Then back at me.
I lifted the edge of my quilt.
Lily climbed in. Then, after a moment, so did Megan. All three of us, in that little single bed in the basement, under Ron’s mother’s quilt, with the flashlight.
Lily opened her book.
“Chapter one,” she said. “The Little House on the Prairie.”
Megan put her head on my shoulder.
“Read it to us, Grandma,” Lily said.
So I did.
Josh went to the meeting at St. Mary’s that Thursday.
I know because I was walking home from Mr. Pham’s at five past seven, and I saw his car in the church parking lot. He was sitting in the driver’s seat with his hands on the wheel. Not getting out.
I stopped on the sidewalk. I watched him.
After a long time, he got out. He walked to the side door of the church. He stood in front of the sign. Gamblers Anonymous. Mondays and Thursdays. 7 p.m. All are welcome.
He stood there for a long time.
Then he looked up and saw me on the sidewalk.
We looked at each other across the parking lot.
I didn’t say anything. I just nodded.
He nodded back. Then he opened the door and went inside.
He’s been going for a year and a half now.
It hasn’t been easy. He relapsed twice in the first six months. Once for a weekend. Once for a whole week, when his father died. Both times, he told Megan himself. The next morning. Before she found out.
That’s the part that made the difference, I think. Not that he stopped. That he started telling the truth.
He works at the Home Depot now, in the garden center. It pays a third of what he used to make. He says it’s the best job he’s ever had. He likes the plants. He likes that nobody bets on them.
Megan’s name is the only name on the deed of the house on Ridgeview Drive. Josh signed the papers himself. He didn’t argue.
They go to marriage counseling on Wednesday nights. Some weeks are good. Some weeks are hard. Megan says she doesn’t know yet if they’ll make it. She says she’s done pretending to know things she doesn’t.
I think that’s the bravest thing I’ve ever heard her say.
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