Rob had walked over to the big window over the sink. He stood with his back to all of us, his hands shoved in his pockets, looking out at the fountain and the maple trees.
His shoulders. Walter’s shoulders. They’d drawn forward and down.
“Rob,” I said.
“I should have said something,” he said to the window.
“Yes.”
“When she… when Vanessa threw it out.”
“Yes.”
“I just stood there.”
“I know.”
“I’ve been standing there for twenty-six years, Mom.” His voice cracked right down the middle. “At every holiday. Every time. I thought if I just kept still, it’d all… it would just resolve itself.”
“That’s how your father operated.”
He gave a short, wet laugh. “Dad would fix the leak and never mention the flood.”
“He’d have made a joke about it.”
Rob turned around. His eyes were red. He crossed the kitchen and stood right in front of me. A big, soft-faced man in a gray sweater, with his arms hanging down at his sides like he didn’t know what to do with them.
“I’m so sorry,” he said. “I’m so sorry I didn’t see you.”
“I know, sweetheart.”
“I’m fifty-three years old.”
“It’s not too late.”
He put his arms around me. I felt him shaking. I held on, right there in my daughter-in-law’s kitchen, among all that marble and stainless steel, with a coffee can still in one hand and the smell of somebody’s cinnamon candle in the air.
And I thought about a little boy of seven, holding my hand in a hospital corridor while we waited for news about his grandfather’s first heart scare. How tight he held on. How he never let go.
There was a long, ragged hour after that.
Vanessa cried. Rob cried. Madison sat down on the top step of the staircase, tucked her earbuds into her hoodie pocket, and listened to every word with her chin resting on her knees.
The twins came up from the basement, where they’d been playing a video game, and stood in the kitchen doorway in their socks.
“What’s wrong with Mom?” Lucy asked.
“Nothing, sweeties,” Vanessa said, wiping her face with the sleeve of her robe. “Nothing. Come here.”
They came. She pulled them both into her arms.
Ben, with a gap where his front tooth used to be, looked up at me over his mother’s shoulder.
“Grandma, is that for us?”
“It’s for both of you.”
“Is it candy?”
“It’s better than candy.”
He frowned. “What’s better than candy?”
I thought about it for a moment.
“A little bit of time,” I said. “Turned into something you can hold.”
He considered this with great seriousness.
“Okay,” he said.
Vanessa laughed, wetly, into his hair.
And that was the first moment I thought the whole thing might hold.
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