The text came while I was holding a pumpkin.
I was standing in the produce aisle of the Fry’s on Oak Avenue, three days before Thanksgiving, turning a small sugar pumpkin over in my hands to check for soft spots. My cart had a bag of cranberries in it. Two sticks of butter. A can of evaporated milk. A bunch of fresh sage for the stuffing.
My phone buzzed in my coat pocket.
I balanced the pumpkin in the crook of my arm and pulled the phone out. It was from Danny. My son.
“Hey Mom. So Sarah’s dad says he’d rather you didn’t come to Thanksgiving this year. Sarah thinks it’s better this way. Sorry. We’ll catch up after the holidays.”
I read it once.
Then I read it again, slowly, the way you read a word you’re not sure you’re spelling right.
A few feet away, a little girl in a shopping cart was singing a song about a turkey. Something she’d learned at school. Gobble gobble, the turkey’s in the oven, gobble gobble, the turkey’s getting hot. Her mother was laughing and picking out sweet potatoes.
I stood there between the squash and the cranberries with a pumpkin in my arm.
I typed a reply. A whole paragraph.
“Danny, I don’t understand. I’ve never even met Richard more than twice. What did I do? I bought you a house three weeks ago. I was going to bring the pie. I always bring the pie.”
I read it over. I deleted it.
I typed another one.
“Is this what you want, too? Or is this what Sarah’s father wants?”
I deleted that one too.
Then I wrote the only word I could actually stand behind.
“Okay.”
I pressed send.
I set the pumpkin back on the pile, very carefully, so it wouldn’t roll off. I left my cart right there in the aisle, with the cranberries and the butter and the sage still in it. And I walked out through the automatic doors into the white glare of the parking lot.
I sat in my car. A 2006 Camry. It has a new door handle now. The old one came off in my hand last spring.
I didn’t cry.
I just sat there with both hands on the steering wheel for a long time, watching people push carts full of Thanksgiving groceries across the parking lot.
Then I drove home.
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