My father took the check from my hand. He held it for a long time.
Then he set it down on the coffee table, very carefully. He gripped the arms of his recliner and pushed himself up to his feet. It took him two tries. His oxygen tank wobbled behind him on its little wheels.
He walked to the front door. He opened the screen. He stepped out onto the porch.
I got up and followed him to the door.
Grace stopped swinging. She looked up at him.
My father stood there on that porch, the same porch where he’d thrown me out. He looked down at the little girl with Caleb’s eyes and Caleb’s dimple.
Then he did something I never in my life thought I’d see.
He lowered himself down, slow and painful, onto one knee. Right there on the porch boards. So he was eye level with her.
“Grace,” he said. His voice was thick. “I’m your grandpa. I’m the one who wasn’t there.”
Grace looked at him very seriously.
“Why weren’t you there?” she asked.
My father swallowed hard.
“Because I was angry,” he said. “At a lot of things. At a family who hurt this town a long time ago. And I let my anger make me do something terrible. I told your mama to go away. When she needed me most. When she was carrying you.”
Grace thought about that.
“That was mean,” she said.
“Yes,” my father said. “It was very mean.”
“Are you still angry?”
My father looked back at me in the doorway. Then down at his granddaughter.
“No, sweetheart,” he said. “I’m just sorry. I’m so, so sorry.”
Grace studied his face for a long time, the way she studies a math problem.
“Nana Mags said sorry is the hardest word,” she finally said. “She said it’s harder than goodbye.”
My father’s face crumpled.
“Your Nana Mags was a very wise woman,” he whispered.
“She was,” Grace said. Then she held out her hand to him. “Do you want to swing with me? You can sit on the squeaky side.”
My father looked at that little hand. Then he took it.
I watched my seventy-year-old father, with his oxygen tank and his trembling hands, climb up off his knee and sit down on that porch swing next to my daughter.
The swing squeaked.
Grace leaned her head against his arm.
And my father put his big, shaking hand on top of her small one and held on.
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