My mother stood beside me in the doorway, watching them.
“Evelyn,” she said quietly. “I need to tell you something.”
“Okay.”
“That night. When he threw you out.” She twisted the dish towel in her hands. “I stood behind that screen door, and I didn’t stop him. I’ve hated myself for that every single day for ten years.”
I didn’t say anything.
“When your letter came back marked ‘Return to Sender,'” she said, “that was him. Not me. I didn’t know it came until a month later. I found the envelope in the trash in the garage. I took it out.” She swallowed. “I read it. I’ve read it a thousand times. I keep it in my Bible.”
I turned and looked at her.
“I wanted to find you,” she said. “I tried. I called every hospital in Ohio when I thought you’d be due. Nobody would tell me anything. You’d changed your number. I didn’t know what state you were in.” Her voice broke. “I prayed for you every night. I prayed you were alive. I prayed the baby was alive.”
“Mom.”
“I’m not asking you to forgive me,” she said. “I don’t deserve it. I just needed you to know I never stopped looking.”
I put my arms around my mother. She was smaller than I remembered. She smelled the same. Jergens lotion and coffee.
We stood in that doorway and held each other while my daughter and my father swung back and forth on the squeaky porch swing.
That night, after Grace fell asleep in my old bedroom, my father came and found me on the back steps. He was carrying something in his hands.
A crumpled, yellowed piece of notebook paper.
“I lied,” he said. “When I said I threw it away.”
I stared at the paper.
“I took it out of the trash that night,” he said. “After you were gone a week. When I read in the paper that boy had died. I don’t know why. I couldn’t bring myself to read it. I put it in my tackle box in the garage.” He held it out to me. “It’s been there ten years.”
I took it with shaking hands. I unfolded it.
It was Caleb’s handwriting. Neat block capitals, the way he wrote everything.
“Mr. Hart. My name is Caleb Monroe. I know what my father did to you and to everybody at the plant. I can’t fix it. But I’m going to spend my life trying to make it right for this town. I’m in love with your daughter. I’d like to marry her someday. I’d like your permission, but I’d like your respect even more, and I know I’ll have to earn it. I’ll come back next Saturday. And the Saturday after that. As many Saturdays as it takes. Respectfully, Caleb.”
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