I sat on those back steps and read it four times.
As many Saturdays as it takes.
He never got another Saturday.
My father sat down beside me on the step. Slowly. His oxygen tank hissed.
“He was a good boy,” he said. “Wasn’t he.”
“He was the best person I ever knew,” I said.
My father nodded. He looked out at the dark backyard.
“I spent ten years hating that family,” he said. “For closing the plant. For what it did to me. To your mother. And the whole time, the best thing that ever came out of the Monroe family was sleeping in a room above a laundromat in Indianapolis. Calling another woman Nana.”
He reached over and put his hand on top of mine. His fingers were cold and trembling.
“I’m going to try to be her grandpa,” he said. “If you’ll let me. I don’t know how much time I’ve got. Doctor says my heart’s not good. But whatever’s left, I want to spend some of it on that swing.”
I looked at my father.
“Every other Saturday,” I said. “That’s what Margaret did. Every other Saturday, she drove three hours each way to sit on my floor and play with a dollhouse.”
He almost smiled. “I can’t drive three hours anymore.”
“Then we’ll come to you,” I said.
We drove home to Indianapolis on Sunday afternoon. Grace fell asleep in the back seat before we even got to Columbus.
Two weeks later, we came back. And two weeks after that.
My father met us at the door every time. He started wearing a clean, pressed shirt for our visits. My mother said he started ironing them himself on Friday nights.
In December, my father asked if he could come with us to visit Caleb’s grave.
We drove out to Forest Rose Cemetery on a cold, gray Saturday morning. Caleb is buried on a little hill next to his father, Thomas, and his grandmother, Margaret. There were fresh flowers on Margaret’s grave. Somebody from the bank leaves them every week.
My father stood in front of Caleb’s headstone for a long time, holding his hat in both hands, his oxygen tank beside him on the frozen grass.
“Son,” he finally said. “I’m sorry I didn’t open the door.”
Grace walked up and slipped her hand into his.
“He forgives you, Grandpa,” she said.
“How do you know, sweetheart?”
“Because Mom says he was good,” Grace said simply. “And good people forgive.”
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