I didn’t go to my parents’ house that day. I drove back to Indianapolis and didn’t sleep for three nights.
My parents were about to lose the house I grew up in. The house with the front porch where my father threw me out.
And the bank that was about to take it was now owned by my daughter. My daughter, whom they’d ordered me to get rid of.
I didn’t tell anybody. Not even Grace.
For six months, I did what Arthur told me to do. I asked the bank’s president, a careful man named David Krause, to put the Hart foreclosure on hold while the bank reviewed its hardship programs. That was the only thing I asked. It was something the bank did for other families too.
And I waited. Because I didn’t know how to walk back up those porch steps.
Then, on her tenth birthday, Grace made the decision for me.
We’d had cake at our kitchen table in our little house in Broad Ripple. The one I’d bought two years earlier with a down payment I saved myself, one paycheck at a time. Chocolate cake from the bakery on College Avenue, with ten pink candles.
After she blew out the candles, Grace sat there looking at me with Caleb’s gray-green eyes.
“Mom,” she said. “Can I ask you something? And you have to promise you won’t get sad.”
“I can’t promise that, baby. But ask.”
“Why don’t we ever visit Grandma and Grandpa? Your mom and dad. Not Nana Mags. The other ones.”
I set down the cake knife.
“It’s complicated, honey.”
“You always say that.” She frowned. “Lily at school has two grandmas and two grandpas. They all come to her birthday. I have zero now. Nana Mags is in heaven.” She looked down at her plate. “I know your mom and dad are still alive. I saw the Christmas card in your desk drawer. The one you never mailed.”
I’d written them a Christmas card every single year. Ten of them. I’d never mailed one.
“Can I meet them?” Grace asked. “Just once? I won’t be bad. I promise. I’ll be really, really good.”
That broke something in me.
Because she thought it was her fault. She thought she had to be good enough to be loved.
That was exactly what my father taught me.
I watched her for a long moment. Then I realized I owed her this. More than I owed my own pride.
“Okay,” I said. “We’ll go Saturday.”
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