He closed his eyes.
“I know,” he said. “I know that now.”
I looked at him. My fourth child. Standing in the gym where he used to sit on the end of the bench during basketball games, sulking because the coach wouldn’t play him.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” I said. “Seven months, Grant. Why didn’t you tell me you were doing this?”
His voice got quiet.
“Because I didn’t want anybody treating me like I was going to fail.”
My laugh came out bitter.
“And you thought I would?”
“No,” he said fast. “No, Mom. You’re the only one who didn’t.”
The gym went very quiet.
“Everybody else did,” Grant said. “Teachers. Coaches. Half the neighbors on Wells Street. Grandma Henderson, before she died. Dad, the one time he called on my eighteenth birthday. Everybody had me figured out. Grant’s the one who’s going to end up in jail. Grant’s the one who’s going to end up just like his father.”
He swallowed hard.
“But not you. Never you. You used to sit on the end of my bed when I came home late, and you’d say, ‘Grant, you can be anything in this world you want. Anything. If you’d just stop acting like you don’t care.'”
My throat was burning.
“I told you that,” I said, “because I didn’t want you to end up like your father.”
The air in the gym changed.
Grant’s eyes filled with tears. And he nodded slowly. Like he’d been carrying that sentence around in his pocket for years.
“I know, Mom,” he said. “I know.”
He took one step toward me.
“I wanted to show you I’m not him.”
His voice dropped. And all the bravado drained right out of it. He sounded about ten years old.
“I wanted you to be proud of me.”
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