Mark became an accountant. He’s thirty-six now. Married, two kids, a house in Huntertown. He’s my serious one. The one who took over being the man of the house at sixteen and never really stopped. He still calls me every Sunday at four o’clock to ask if I’ve paid my property taxes.
Jason became an electrician. He’s my funny one. He tells stories that make no sense and somehow everybody laughs anyway. He has a big truck and a big beard and a heart like a golden retriever.
Caleb is my quiet one. He’s a physical therapist. He reads books on his lunch break and remembers everything you ever tell him.
Sarah is my fierce one. A nurse in the emergency department at Parkview. She doesn’t take anything from anybody. She’s the one I’d want next to me in a bar fight, if I were the kind of sixty-year-old woman who got into bar fights.
Eliza, my baby, is twenty-seven. She teaches second grade. She still crawls into my bed sometimes when she comes home for the weekend.
And then there’s Grant.
Grant is twenty-nine. He was ten when his father left. And of all my children, he’s the one it broke the worst.
Before Ray left, Grant was a sweet, goofy little boy who followed his dad everywhere. After Ray left, he got angry. And he stayed angry for a very long time.
He got into fights at school. He got suspended in seventh grade. At fifteen, he got picked up by the police for spray-painting the back wall of a Kroger. At seventeen, he crashed my car into a mailbox at two in the morning. He dropped out of community college twice.
I’ve spent more nights waiting up for Grant than for the other five combined. More nights lying in bed staring at the ceiling, listening for his key in the door. More nights jumping every time the phone rang, sure it was a police officer or a hospital calling to tell me something terrible.
So when I opened my door on my sixtieth birthday and found a police officer holding a note in Grant’s handwriting, I want you to understand.
My mind went to the worst place it had ever gone.
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